what they all call
L O V E
why is everyone asking me about my love life?
my one and true love is..
hmm...
wait..
i know the answer to that...
aaahh...
ME,
MYSELF
and
I
i am too young to think about love.
if you just read my blog enough you'll know why.
the answer is just below... the status thingy.. whatever
i'm just fed up of all those posers that reduce me into something worthless by sharing their piece of shit to me: "why don't you have a girlfriend?". [go away] there's nothing wrong about asking pero... GRRRRRR... people could share thier love life to me but don't push yourselves! don't ever ask me about love. i suck at it because i don't really believe in it [yet], because it sucks also. i'd rather buy things than to keep myself busy about love. [materialistic.. true] the true love for me right now is that... and the love for God and for yourself, country...? others...? i don't want to magnify LOVE on someone... i feel that it's selfish in a way it's also not selfish... labo.. gulo talaga!!!
i'm too young!!!
i don't even look 18 years old, well i'm just 17 but in a month or so i'll be 18. the guards in benilde even thought i'm a highschool student, getting an application form, when i left my ID at home. i don't want to have another headache spare me. i don't even want to search for it anymore. we all get that feeling of crave for that someone we love but i realized that i'll just keep on believing in something "unreal". for me it will become "real" by choice. i haven't really chosen yet. i just feel that there is a time for all of that...
yes, i do think about it sometimes. thinking about it just make my heart bleed.
i just want to go look for another type of love, love for myself. i want to indulge in making my ownself feel good in each and everyday. i'll even laugh myself to death if i have to. all i want in life is that simple joy. the fulfillment of making yourself and others around you happy. that is the bliss of love that i can acertain to.
i just blog to keep a record of myself. not to compete by the design and to put lots of decorative codes on my blog. i just need this to keep track of my own happiness because i know that someday i will change. i fear it a lot. i'm just a simple person that lives to a new day each day. i don't really care what happens each day of my life because we all can't do anything about what the Lord wants. wala naman akong ipagmamalaki. lahat naman tayo eh. if i'm "evil" so what? i don't really care. i just feel that i 'm not THAT evil.. moderate lang naman, hahaha me levels pala un. whatever. i just feel that everyday i might get run by a truck or crashed by an airplane... hahaha it could happen, a plane directly crash on you... but that's a little silly.
if i just find all of those "simple joys" in my life then i'd be ready to die alone.
i don't fear death. i do not fear dying with people still telling me that i don't have a girlfriend, a wife or kids. i just really fear dying not even making a smile on my own face, my heart and my mind. [kala mo soul noh!] to the people that keeps on bothering me...FUCK OFF! please.
[how polite am i? hahaha]
i don't normally blog about these kind of situations/topic.. but this friend of mine just hit a nerve. i hope this answers your question and go away from me for a while. you completely ruined my mindset. i never think about that so frantically. when you just asked me about that i just wanted to commit suicide in front of you or hit you with a 10 wheeler truck. you are like a zit that everyone would like to squeeze. a tick that i want to pound with a stone.
i just posted this because i just don't want to be disoriented because of this mishap